Tracy Kornet's Blog

I've been questioning lately if I'm becoming numb to emotion. If I can still love like I used to. Care about anything as deeply as I did when my children were young, my family was growing, my career was budding. Tonight I think I know the answer. I haven't cried like this, or feared deep loss like this, since my mother was dying. But that was my mother. This is my child. I simply can't bear the thought of losing Luke. I don't know how parents of terminally ill children get through such heart-wrenching times. I have a full-grown, 19-year-old, healthy son and I will be crying myself to sleep tonight at the thought of what just happened becoming something much worse. I just watched Luke get clocked during a basketball game and slam to the ground. Nothing broke his fall. Just his head. I was watching the game in my cubicle before anchoring the 10pm news, during which I often report terrible stories about concussions, accidents, falls, and beatings. I'v

It is hard to blog when there are so many people we're obligated to protect. I don't want to embarrass the kids or get them in trouble (any more than I already have). I don't want to divulge any station secrets or affect my reputation as a news person. Yet I want to be authentic, relatable. Right? Isn't that what a blog should be? I keep sitting down to type and end up erasing every thought...out of fear. It's no fun living this way. So I've decided to type a few of the random thoughts and feelings I've had these last few weeks. And then I want to hear YOURS.  Deal? Tracy's Random Thoughts 1. I feel gross. This winter has just about destroyed my energy, desire, and ability to stay active. I have spent entirely too many mornings curled up on the couch in my leopard PJ's, reading and watching "Love It or List It" before work. I finally got to the gym today, and I'm determined to get back to my old self and out in the s